Last night when i was thinking about all that happened to me in last few years ...i cudn't resist myself gettin back to those days when we were together....I was thinking about him...He is the first person whom I gave my sweetest "yes" , the first person who made me human, the first person who brought joy, laughter, pain & suffering to my life. The first person who made me feel wanted, and the first person who made me feel worthless. And after a long time, I can still remember how we habitually made phone calls to each other after every one or two hours break and untiring long talk during nights. How I love the way he compliments me, how he used to stare to my eyes, how he used to touch my hair and ask me to keep it long and shiny as it is. I loved everything about him as well, his smile, his eyes & how he made me feel.
I used to dream of having my first boyfriend to be my lifetime partner but he is the person who made me cry buckets of tears because of that dream that will never ever be come true and at that point of time I learned to close my door to the world.
He is the person who taught me that life isn't all about having fun; that there is more to life than endless phone calls, long walks, gifts, and yes, there is more life than love. That life doesn't end when love fades; that people walk in and out of your life and you can't do anything but accept it, because that's how life is..
And when I think about it, it just makes me smile to know that how pathetic I was when I was moaning over my lost love. I became better person because of him. All the things he taught me and all the memories I have of him are stored as a chapter of my life; one of the best chapters of my life that I will never ever forget--and I will always be thankful for that.....
I know what just happened was a sign, not of a second chance but that life is never about closing your doors to the world, that life is about being human, that it is all right to cry and to make mistakes, that it is just ok to fall in love over again as long as you know how to keep your dignity with you. And that however painful love can be, it is the only thing that makes us truly human..
I used to dream of having my first boyfriend to be my lifetime partner but he is the person who made me cry buckets of tears because of that dream that will never ever be come true and at that point of time I learned to close my door to the world.
He is the person who taught me that life isn't all about having fun; that there is more to life than endless phone calls, long walks, gifts, and yes, there is more life than love. That life doesn't end when love fades; that people walk in and out of your life and you can't do anything but accept it, because that's how life is..
And when I think about it, it just makes me smile to know that how pathetic I was when I was moaning over my lost love. I became better person because of him. All the things he taught me and all the memories I have of him are stored as a chapter of my life; one of the best chapters of my life that I will never ever forget--and I will always be thankful for that.....
I know what just happened was a sign, not of a second chance but that life is never about closing your doors to the world, that life is about being human, that it is all right to cry and to make mistakes, that it is just ok to fall in love over again as long as you know how to keep your dignity with you. And that however painful love can be, it is the only thing that makes us truly human..
posted by Sunayana Khandelwal at 7:05 AM
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